a little progress! what ive learned that can maybe help someone!

Ok so i can promise u pmo is a bad idea. Im 28 year old dude and Ive been heavily addicted since i was 12. Pmo affects everyone negatively in a different way. For me it affected me very directly and in painful ways. I couldnt comunicate as well. No energy to even shower let alone leave the house. Pmo was the soul reason for my depression. I had no friends no confidence and could do nothimg with my life. I had a job that i barely held onto and people found me awkward. Well i recignised i needed to change. I have tried to defeat it for years. Hundreds and hundreds of attempts. I failed every time. I felt hopeless. It was ruining my life and i contemplated suicide because i had nothing. No friends no future a shitty job and i was dirty and stinky and lazy.


Well through a crap ton of desperate study online i discovered why i always failed. I r3alized my problem wasnt actually pmo. My problem was a crappy life and crappy habits. I woke up late all the time and played league of legends non stop which just makes me angry cause of the toxic comunity. I pmod alot and stayed up till late in the am wasting time on league of legends. I had nothing fulfilling. Nothing to be proud of. Nothing to keep me going! Well so i simply have changed some habits and ive been pmo free for 5 days! Granted thats not very long but ive already seen huge changes. I am so positive and confident. I am so social and fun and charismatic. My mind is finally clear and its so easy to comunicate. But beyond everything the biggest change is drive! I have so much motivation! I get up early and go for a run first thing. Then i watch motivational videos and read self help books. I deleted league of legends and i put blocks on my computer and phone. Ive never felt so amazing in my life. I feel i can accomplish anything. By the way forgive my bad spelling. Im writing this on my phone cause im at the river right now and was watching a self help vid on youtube on my phone. My goal is 90 days and i know 5 days is no where near that but ill tell u this. I know im stronger than i e ever been because i have reformed my mind and habits and how i spend my time. I am for the first time clear minded and i have alot of strength to resist. I am more determined than ever to reach my goal and i believe i will! Anyway everyones different but i found changing my crappy habits has given me more strength against this addiction than anything ive ever done and more strength than i ever anticipated. If u have crappy habits try changing them! Start working out instead of wasting time at the computer! I was hopeless and ready to kill myslef and now ive never felt stronger and more hopeful for the future! Thats the best advise i can give. I hope this helps someone out there! Peace nofap fam!