A lot of nightmares about relapsing?

I think it's a reflection of how you think about it in real life, but i can be wrong. I had a few ones, until i started to trust my own ability to decide what impacted my life in the best way (Not fapping)

 

Why should you want it to ease down? Might you consider it a blessing? It is actually a vivid reminder what falling back and relapsing feels like - something we tend to forget when we're on a long streak of recovery - the hellish memory of addictions becomes ever more distant the longer we go without, and our fantasies tell us it won't be that bad if we relpase. Wouldn't such relapse dreams be good to have on such occasions?

Contrastingly, I've also have had the reverse kind of dream - where life is happy, soaring even, and free of all addictions, only to wake up and remember that I just relapsed that day before or am on a binge, etc. Such dreams make me want to start recovery again, recalling how better off I am when not in the PMO cesspool.

Best Wishes!

 

This is a good sign. It means that your mind is dealing with you being on a streak. It means you are cleaning out the old and making way for the new.

 

I have dreams like this too. Usually the dream isn't detailed but involves me watching not detailed P and then relapsing and being pissed. I have had them twice this week/streak alone. I wouldn't be worried about them. In my opinion, they are just your subconscious communicating with you wanting you to PMO(or maybe the opposite?).