A thought

Dear Community,
Thank you always for lending an ear, and being there, it truly motivates me to know I have you all to turn to in difficult times and circumstances. I have given myself, time to ponder, and consider the root cause, of why this has been what it has been, a problem.

Most of the time I turned my attention to blaming the porn itself for creating the situation. Yet in truth, I realized I put myself there. Everytime, I had regret, remorse and shame. Pixels, were defining my life. And that is what hit me today, that acceptance. I do not want that to be my life story.

I want to be successful, have a career, help the world, and be active and proud of what I do. We only have this one life to hold on to. And I do not want to taint it. I want people to see that I am not existing, but living a life that I can say I got the most out of. Porn has made me quite depressed, because I honestly could never truly explain how I became addicted in the first place.

Yet what I do know, is I have to fight on, build courage and not reopen the wounds, let them heal, and with that, allow myself to heal. As I like to say "Dream plus action equals reality". I know this path is hard, but in the end it will allow me to be the best version of myself. I would like to hear your thoughts, hear your prospectives as I begin my Nofap journey again.

Once again, thank you for being great friends, have a nice day everyone.