Hello there, I want to share my story, as it weighs heavily in my mind. Tonight I met a girl from Tinder, and she brought her lady friend with her. We ended up having a threesome, which in anybody's book it's a win...but instead of me celebrating, I have to take heavy decisions. I am on PM mode only, as I thought to myself I should leave my options of real sex open. Well, just a few years ago, I would be able over the course of 1 1/2 hour to finish three times, and with different chicks, as it is something I enjoy, the variety. Having threesomes is not something unusual either. Now unfortunately, having been disrespectful to my penis for years upon years (I am 35 now), I am not even able to keep my erection. The best I can do is a 6/10, and it constantly keeps dropping, to the point the girls were laughing with each other every time they had to wake it up.Imagine my feeling. I blame it on the goddamn porn I have been watching. For the past year and a half, I discover a specific genre that I really liked, and I have been slowly masturbating for 5-6 hours. Every day for multiple times. Unfortunately I believe that has ruined my sensation, my erections, gave me PIED, my interest in women, I even stopped going to the gym because I wanted to stay in and masturbate. I have reached an atrocious weight of 147kg, and I know that I am killing my penis with my weight, sugar problems and my porn addiction. And I firmly believe its all because of the porn. Tonight, I had to finish myself with my hands, as even though I tried hard to penetrate the girls, nothing sort of laying down worked, I could not even do missionary, because I was both soft, and immensely fat, looking at myself in the mirror. I will be resetting my badge back to 0, as I essentially had to masturbate to finish, it would have taken me more than an hour if I had not used my hand, and I will change to PMO mode, as I cannot take anymore the humiliation of my atrocious condition, and I have noone else to blame it but me. To the title point then.....A word to the younger fappers. If you wish to have a normal life, that does not make you feel like you are handicapped, if you want to feel like a real man (a man that does not get hard is nothing), RESPECT your penis. Leave it alone. Don't bother with porn. There is nothing to be gained by mentally castrating yourself. You might not feel like a man if your penis does not work, and trust me, that is potentially the worst thing a man can have. Go to the gym, respect your body, eat with some control, and exercise your will power. Be healthy. Don't be like me. I pray to God, to give me strength to overcome this, as I have no courage going with a woman again. I hope it is not permanent, I want to have kids at some point. Thank you for the support, and I hope I do not bother with my rant.