About to lose my fucking mind...

Forget about counting streaks and forget about definitions of “lapse”, “reset”, “relapse”. They honestly mean nothing. If anything they just grind you down and pummel you further into this addiction. The furthest I’ve ever been was when I stopped counting and began to see it as a change of life as opposed to what almost sounds like a temporary measure. You came into dangerous territory and you know not to ever come anywhere near that close again. But you didn’t do anything. So don’t beat yourself up about it just move on, learn for next time

 

Stop living in a mind made state of shame and perfectionism , stop telling yourself you have failed in some way. You have climbed very high up a mountain and have stumbled near the top over over something which would distract any man. Keep marching solider you’re doing great ignore that voice that wants you to chuck the towel in and go back to addiction. You are the one behind that voice that has the power to stop it. Concentrate on how far you’ve come and the positives. God I wish I’d take my own advise sometimes.

 

You haven’t wasted 4 years worth of trying. It isn’t an issue unless you’ve gone into a bender and keep relapsing. Think of the 1460+ days you’ve had, clear headed without porn, not just the 1 day you slipped up

 

No sober and clean days will ever be wasted. You have 100 sober days and then you may have 3 shaky ones, even playing with fire ones.
Which ones are more beneficial to focus on in order for you to keep going and growing?

 

You don’t disappoint anyone - and the person being most critical is you. We all suffer the same as you… but perhaps in different ways - if not, we wouldn’t be here. In this place you have people who understand and can support you.

yesterday… you mis stepped. You put a foot wrong. That’s not the end of the world. You stop, review your mistake and start again. Take what you e learned to date in this site and get back up and do it again - but better!

You can do this buddy. We all can… but we need to help each other on the way.