Actual Progress!

I've been fapping to bondage material for about 15 years now, so this is a deeply ingrained habit that spanned the whole range of my formative years. Or put another way, those talons are in, deep.

I drew the connection between ED issues I was having and porn addiction more than a year ago, and in that interim, I have struggled tremendously with quitting. I've attacked it from a number of angles, setting minimum time periods between fapping, constantly trying to best my previous records. In that time, I'm a bit embarrassed to say that I've only managed to go about 5 and a half days, max.

It would be easy to get discouraged looking at the raw numbers, but the fact that I routinely go more than a day without fapping has to be a sign of progress over my addiction. (Can you really be considered an alcoholic if you can go 24 hours without a drink?) Even better, my relationship to porn has changed markedly. Where I used to view it as unproblematic, I'm starting to view it as a turn-off. Granted, I still relapse, all the time. But I remember when I drank a soda every day, without fail. Now I hardly touch it. I don't know: it feels like time is on my side here.

I've decided to just quit cold turkey. While I've made conservative progress, I don't think it's enough. I really have to go for a huge milestone now: I'm 26 hours in, and I feel pretty great. I know there will be challenges ahead, but I've learned quite a bit about my own habits and inclinations over the past year of attempted reboots. For once I feel properly equipped to handle it

Thanks for all of the support, encouragement, and advice. I can't wait to keep on improving myself.

yuzax

 

I reckon so too! Thanks!

 

That is actually quite good to know. Like I said, it's easy to get down on yourself, but if you actually think in terms of the progress those 2, 3 day streaks actually stand for, the outlook gets a little sunnier. I'm glad to hear that you had similar experiences, and that gives me hope that I'll be there someday too!