Addiction that destroyed my marriage and my life

gradagrada · Jan 18, 2019

im sorry for my bad english my mother language is french.

Hello everybody My name is X.
X has 29 years old, he lives in Algeria. X was born in Algeria.
at the age of 17 X left secondary school, because he discovered internet.
X was raised in a very religious family. when he was young his father and mother teached him the bad things that he should not do and the things that may make him go to hell. X had no life until the age of 17 when he discovered internet, X had a big sexual frustration, he fapped day and night. X has no TV for 17 years he did not knew anything about the sexual world, all he knew is God Religion, X fapped until the age of 25 when he finaly met a girl from Austria that loved him, X was used to his screen, he loved to see that girl and she loved to see him, but X did not realise at this moment that he was just attracted by virtual things,and not real things, X was fapping with that girl day and night.

the day came when this girl asked X to meet somewhere, they met. X had sex the first time in his life, he tasted the real meaning of sex, all this 25 years he just saw that over a screen, he enjoyed it but X had 25 years of fapping, when his girlfriend went back to Austria and he went back to Algeria X started fapping again even if his first experience was more then amazing. X missed fapping with that girl and to see her over his screen then to have real sex with her. X started to feel bad but he ignored that. he said i will get used to it with time then i will stop this things with porn, and also loving to see his new girlfriend in his screen.

the day came when the girl wanted X to move from Algeria to Austria to live with her, X was just fapping day and night he wasnt working so he said this could be my opportunity to have a girl in my life, and to start living and find a job in a better country.
X thought that he found finally the meaning of his life. and he thought he was finally make a family and start living happily and make his parents proud of him. and be proud of himself.

X moved to austria everything was fine and he got married with his lovely girlfriend, after few months X started again fapping he missed that watching porn, or other things that X doesnt want to talk about in here.
X felt that he got a serious problem his wife sleeping in her bed and him in the middle of the night fapping.
X thought that alot of couples do that, and its not a problem.
X discovered one day that his WIFE was dating somebody else.
X could not beleive that this happened his Wife asked him for divorce and that he moves away.
X kept fapping and crying at night he thought that he got a serious problem with himself he is a monster he destroyed his marriage and destroyed his life, X could not keep his job because he wasnt motivated. X lost his job, his wife in the other side with her mother and the lawyer, X could not stay in Austria alone, X is a monster and a looser. he cameback to Algeria he did not want to stay illegaly in Austria alone and without a job, Now X is living with his parents, he has no job and he is still fapping he tries to stop a day and the next day he fapps two times to catch up the other day. he came to this website to share his story and to find help, X did not leave his room since now a year and a half, X does not even see the sun, X sleeps the day and wake up the night to fap, X is wanting only one thing to find away to finish his life in a way that doesnt hurt anybody not X and not his parents X is in a very critical situation he has sometimes suicide thoughts but in the other hand he doesnt want to hurt his parents if X had no parents he would have done that i think X is writing all of that with tears.

X is a looser and he doesnt go out of his room since a long time now i hnestly do not know what to do i lost the only chance maybe in my life.and lost somebody who loved me really aot

the awakening · Jan 18, 2019

gradagrada said: ↑

im sorry for my bad english my mother language is french.

Hello everybody My name is X.
X has 29 years old, he lives in Algeria. X was born in Algeria.
at the age of 17 X left secondary school, because he discovered internet.
X was raised in a very religious family. when he was young his father and mother teached him the bad things that he should not do and the things that may make him go to hell. X had no life until the age of 17 when he discovered internet, X had a big sexual frustration, he fapped day and night. X has no TV for 17 years he did not knew anything about the sexual world, all he knew is God Religion, X fapped until the age of 25 when he finaly met a girl from Austria that loved him, X was used to his screen, he loved to see that girl and she loved to see him, but X did not realise at this moment that he was just attracted by virtual things,and not real things, X was fapping with that girl day and night.

the day came when this girl asked X to meet somewhere, they met. X had sex the first time in his life, he tasted the real meaning of sex, all this 25 years he just saw that over a screen, he enjoyed it but X had 25 years of fapping, when his girlfriend went back to Austria and he went back to Algeria X started fapping again even if his first experience was more then amazing. X missed fapping with that girl and to see her over his screen then to have real sex with her. X started to feel bad but he ignored that. he said i will get used to it with time then i will stop this things with porn, and also loving to see his new girlfriend in his screen.

the day came when the girl wanted X to move from Algeria to Austria to live with her, X was just fapping day and night he wasnt working so he said this could be my opportunity to have a girl in my life, and to start living and find a job in a better country.
X thought that he found finally the meaning of his life. and he thought he was finally make a family and start living happily and make his parents proud of him. and be proud of himself.

X moved to austria everything was fine and he got married with his lovely girlfriend, after few months X started again fapping he missed that watching porn, or other things that X doesnt want to talk about in here.
X felt that he got a serious problem his wife sleeping in her bed and him in the middle of the night fapping.
X thought that alot of couples do that, and its not a problem.
X discovered one day that his WIFE was dating somebody else.
X could not beleive that this happened his Wife asked him for divorce and that he moves away.
X kept fapping and crying at night he thought that he got a serious problem with himself he is a monster he destroyed his marriage and destroyed his life, X could not keep his job because he wasnt motivated. X lost his job, his wife in the other side with her mother and the lawyer, X could not stay in Austria alone, X is a monster and a looser. he cameback to Algeria he did not want to stay illegaly in Austria alone and without a job, Now X is living with his parents, he has no job and he is still fapping he tries to stop a day and the next day he fapps two times to catch up the other day. he came to this website to share his story and to find help, X did not leave his room since now a year and a half, X does not even see the sun, X sleeps the day and wake up the night to fap, X is wanting only one thing to find away to finish his life in a way that doesnt hurt anybody not X and not his parents X is in a very critical situation he has sometimes suicide thoughts but in the other hand he doesnt want to hurt his parents if X had no parents he would have done that i think X is writing all of that with tears.

X is a looser and he doesnt go out of his room since a long time now i hnestly do not know what to do i lost the only chance maybe in my life.and lost somebody who loved me really aot
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Salut X,
X is not a looser. X est quelqu'un qui passe par une période très dure dans sa vie. Plus la bataille est dure plus la victoire est belle. Beaucoup de gens divorce X n'est pas un looser pour autant. La masturbation t’empêches de prendre ta vie en main. C'est la raison pour laquelle nous sommes tous sur ce forum. Combattre cette addiction qui détruit nos vies. Tu es encore jeune, tu as encore tout le temps pour reconstruire ta vie. Tu passes surement dans une phase de dépression suite à ton divorce, cela est normal. Mais la dépression et une maladie qui se soigne, pas facile je suis passer par là aussi. Pour stopper ton addiction tu vas devoir prendre des mesures. Un conseil est de passer le moins de temps possible dans le lieu où tu te masturbes. Si tu a la possibilité place ton ordinateur dans une pièces où tu n'as pas la possibilité de regarder de la pornographie. Par exemple le salon. Trouver du travail n'est pas facile ou que tu sois sur terre mais combattre ton addiction te permettra de transformer ta vie. Cela va demander des efforts comme à nous tous, mais tu trouveras beaucoup d’histoire très inspirante de personnes qui ont elles aussi passés par des moments très difficile. Tu peux t'en sortir comme nous tous.

gradagrada · Jan 18, 2019

the awakening said: ↑

Salut X,
X is not a looser. X est quelqu'un qui passe par une période très dure dans sa vie. Plus la bataille est dure plus la victoire est belle. Beaucoup de gens divorce X n'est pas un looser pour autant. La masturbation t’empêches de prendre ta vie en main. C'est la raison pour laquelle nous sommes tous sur ce forum. Combattre cette addiction qui détruit nos vies. Tu es encore jeune, tu as encore tout le temps pour reconstruire ta vie. Tu passes surement dans une phase de dépression suite à ton divorce, cela est normal. Mais la dépression et une maladie qui se soigne, pas facile je suis passer par là aussi. Pour stopper ton addiction tu vas devoir prendre des mesures. Un conseil est de passer le moins de temps possible dans le lieu où tu te masturbes. Si tu a la possibilité place ton ordinateur dans une pièces où tu n'as pas la possibilité de regarder de la pornographie. Par exemple le salon. Trouver du travail n'est pas facile ou que tu sois sur terre mais combattre ton addiction te permettra de transformer ta vie. Cela va demander des efforts comme à nous tous, mais tu trouveras beaucoup d’histoire très inspirante de personnes qui ont elles aussi passés par des moments très difficile. Tu peux t'en sortir comme nous tous.
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Merci apres avoir decouvert ce site internet, et apres avoir lu ta reponse je commence a me dire qu'il me reste une chance et que d'autre gens ont eu des problemes avec la masturbation car je me suis senti longtemps comme un incapable et comme quelqu'un de faible. qui a detruit sa vie et son marriage. Merci. pour ta reponse

Mattew · Jan 19, 2019

Just start with nofap, stop porn for the rest of your life. Make that your only occupation in life, stopping porn.

And then see what happens.

gradagrada · Jan 19, 2019

Mattew said: ↑

Just start with nofap, stop porn for the rest of your life. Make that your only occupation in life, stopping porn.

And then see what happens.
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thank you i appreciate it , i am trying its honestly hard because i always have thoughts but i do not leave my room so i am just watching political videos about what is happening in france to keep my mind occupied and when i feel bad i try to sleep after taking sleeping pills

swagzenegger · Jan 21, 2019

X I love your story, I like honesty.
Do you know what keeps me going on and on every day, smiling and happy without any reason even tho I fapp like an animal the whole half of day?
I believe in me, I have a feeling inside of me that tells me that I can do this no matter how deep in shit I may be, and I believe you can find that feeling inside of you no matter how shitty it feels.
But its not gona be enough, You need to act even tho you feel like shit. go out. start running, go to a gym, do sport activity, work, read, do voluntary work, meditate(good to strengthen your mind and quit addiction), do yoga,work in a farm, go to a church or mosque, take your dog for a walk(if u have any), do something, anything, keep yourself ocupied.
And remeber life is not meant to be perfect, this is not to make you depresed an commit suicide, but to teach you something, an obstacle you have to pass in your life. I see porn as a challange and this bitch wont keep me forever.Because I know once I break these bonds there is nothing that can stop me.

Sorry for best english. Regards

David1221 · Jan 21, 2019

gradagrada said: ↑

im sorry for my bad english my mother language is french.

Hello everybody My name is X.
X has 29 years old, he lives in Algeria. X was born in Algeria.
at the age of 17 X left secondary school, because he discovered internet.
X was raised in a very religious family. when he was young his father and mother teached him the bad things that he should not do and the things that may make him go to hell. X had no life until the age of 17 when he discovered internet, X had a big sexual frustration, he fapped day and night. X has no TV for 17 years he did not knew anything about the sexual world, all he knew is God Religion, X fapped until the age of 25 when he finaly met a girl from Austria that loved him, X was used to his screen, he loved to see that girl and she loved to see him, but X did not realise at this moment that he was just attracted by virtual things,and not real things, X was fapping with that girl day and night.

the day came when this girl asked X to meet somewhere, they met. X had sex the first time in his life, he tasted the real meaning of sex, all this 25 years he just saw that over a screen, he enjoyed it but X had 25 years of fapping, when his girlfriend went back to Austria and he went back to Algeria X started fapping again even if his first experience was more then amazing. X missed fapping with that girl and to see her over his screen then to have real sex with her. X started to feel bad but he ignored that. he said i will get used to it with time then i will stop this things with porn, and also loving to see his new girlfriend in his screen.

the day came when the girl wanted X to move from Algeria to Austria to live with her, X was just fapping day and night he wasnt working so he said this could be my opportunity to have a girl in my life, and to start living and find a job in a better country.
X thought that he found finally the meaning of his life. and he thought he was finally make a family and start living happily and make his parents proud of him. and be proud of himself.

X moved to austria everything was fine and he got married with his lovely girlfriend, after few months X started again fapping he missed that watching porn, or other things that X doesnt want to talk about in here.
X felt that he got a serious problem his wife sleeping in her bed and him in the middle of the night fapping.
X thought that alot of couples do that, and its not a problem.
X discovered one day that his WIFE was dating somebody else.
X could not beleive that this happened his Wife asked him for divorce and that he moves away.
X kept fapping and crying at night he thought that he got a serious problem with himself he is a monster he destroyed his marriage and destroyed his life, X could not keep his job because he wasnt motivated. X lost his job, his wife in the other side with her mother and the lawyer, X could not stay in Austria alone, X is a monster and a looser. he cameback to Algeria he did not want to stay illegaly in Austria alone and without a job, Now X is living with his parents, he has no job and he is still fapping he tries to stop a day and the next day he fapps two times to catch up the other day. he came to this website to share his story and to find help, X did not leave his room since now a year and a half, X does not even see the sun, X sleeps the day and wake up the night to fap, X is wanting only one thing to find away to finish his life in a way that doesnt hurt anybody not X and not his parents X is in a very critical situation he has sometimes suicide thoughts but in the other hand he doesnt want to hurt his parents if X had no parents he would have done that i think X is writing all of that with tears.

X is a looser and he doesnt go out of his room since a long time now i hnestly do not know what to do i lost the only chance maybe in my life.and lost somebody who loved me really aot
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You’re not a loser. You’re just going through a tough time right now. All part of living this human experience.

If porn has done all of this to you, in and has kind of ruined your life, then you need to develop a hatred towards it and go on HARDMODE. Stop numbing yourself by carrying on watching, and start taking action.

Even though you’re at your wits end with life and feel suicidal, there’s always a decision that we can make, to change our lives. It might not be easy, may be extremely hard, but people here have done it. People on this site have done it, so you can too.

I know how you’re feeling. I was suicidal last year, wanting to end it all. This video really saved me- it opened up my perceptive, and made me realise, that I wasn’t the only one going through this crippling circumstance.

Watch this man please -

gradagrada · Jan 21, 2019

thank you for your support i was doing well since two days since i discovered this website but i was feeling horrible yesturday sometimes everything comes into my mind my friends all in the same age of me are succesful and they are either working and building their future or married. when this all comes i just feel bad i took sleeping pills and i watched some videos and i did it again god help me i cannot even go outside to buy something sometimes i feel like a pizza would be good but then i tell myself its ok atleast im in my room i will do this a nother day god made me i beleive in him he did not make me to suffer like that he will come to help me he is my last hope but thank you for your support and i am going to watch this video

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