HI guys, its been another 7 days and i have mixed feelings. i am happy that i was able to stay anotjher week without PMO-ing but sometimes i feel like just PMO-ing and when i decide not to PMO, i feel so drained mentally and then i ask myself why i am even doing this reboot thing. on friday night i had the opportunity to have sex with a girl but i never actually took the initiative to actually bring her back home because 1. she was drunk but 2. it didnt feel right actually having sex with someone you have no genuine feelings for but the next day i felt like shit because i didnt have sex with her. my mind is playing tricks with me and its really annoying me but what i am really proud of is that i didnt react to the friday night by PMO-ing at least twice that night but rather i went straight to sleep. i feel like my mind is starting to realize that i can't deal with disspointment by PMO-ing but rather to deal with the feelings as they come. but its only been 2 weeks and the urges are still there to PMO and these urges come at least once a day but to actually resist these urges by knowing that there is a bigger objective to being free from PMO-ing is the real success.
