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Day 97 No PMO. Very grateful for this site. I have not had this amount of time away from PMO since I was a kid. My life has changed so much since I began this journey. I am not consumed daily with sexual images which leaves my mind free to think about enjoying my life. Able to look people in the eye instead of looking off due to all the guilt and shame carried around for years. Still early on this journey but I see the kind of life I wanted for many years but felt trapped with no way out. Thanks to NoFap and all that share their stories. It has been worth all the misery trying to stop just for one day. Looking forward to where this journey will lead me!

 

101 days NoPMO. Feeling grateful and willing. A lot going on in my personal life that is extremely stressful and I currently have no desire to PMO. One day at a time.

 

Thanks, good to hear you are right there with me.

 

109 days today no PMO. Woke up with slight urges which I have not felt in a while. I have been n a work trip for a week. Continue to be committed to one day at a time. This reboot I feel is really changing my life and I don't want to go back to being trapped with PMO.

 

Day 113 and continuing on this journey of no PMO. Surprising how the time moves on after the initial giant urges. Not out of the woods but not struggling today. Dealing with life on life's terms with out my main escape mechanism PMO. Shouting out thanks to all that preceded me so I could see this is possible. I would encourage anyone struggling to keep trying. I never thought this amount of time away from PMO would be possible for me.

 

116 days no PMO. Just one day at a time. The withdrawal does stop.

 

120 days no PMO. I try to remember where I came from, hours of PMO through the years, wasted time. Today having to face life on life's terms without escaping with PMO. This is worth it!

 

Continuing to track my time with no PMO. Today marks 127 days. My focus today is understanding how to live life on life's terms. Continual work and personal stesses are part of life and normal for everyone, I am sure. I tend to get wound up with anger or fear which in the past would send me to PMO. I try to remember to let these emotions go and realize this too shall pass. Today I would rather learn how to deal with these normal daily occurrences than go back to that miserable trapped life of nonstop PMO.

 

134 days No PMO and feeling good. Today I am not willing to linger on a trigger. The further away I get from PMO the better I feel, able to accomplish more, and have more energy. It continues to amaze me how much time has passed. I guess it is because PMO is not on my mind. I never would have believed it was possible to stop for this long. Grateful for this site because it is the only helpful tool that has worked for me.

 

140 days no PMO. I have been triggered recently and not sure where it is coming from. I do not want to go back to those miserable days being stuck wasting life. One day at a time is my answer. This too shall pass. Very grateful for all the fapstronauts stories reminding me I am not the only one on this path.

 

On vacation with the 90 something plus parents. Grateful I have 147 days no PMO so that I could be present with them. Dad has Alzheimer's and mixed Dementia and my mother is getting thinner daily. Funny how life can bring you full circle, taking care of the people that raised you, where my PMO started, and now stopping PMO while they are living with me. I remember very little of the days before PMO from childhood to now except I think I was happy. This has been a good opportunity to learn how to get to know my parents in a more meaningful way and make up for all the years I was not present due to my addiction. It is not easy but glad I did not miss this opportunity due to PMO.

 

157 days no PMO. It is a good feeling not trapped everyday consumed with PMO.

 

Checking out an old iPad I noticed an old App I use to look at P. I thought I had deleted all past ways I looked at P. This info was also in the cloud which meant my phone also had access. I immediately deleted the App and went online to find out how to delete what was in the cloud. Caught me by surprise and greatful I made the best choice. Just don't want to go back to that trapped miserable life of PMO.

 

I am finding compulsive eating at times is happening since I stopped PMO. Trying not to beat up on myself because I am going to the gym, involved in hobbies, taking care of business, and clean from PMO. It is a reminder that my brain is trying to get dopamine hits in other ways. Living in a busy city under these stressful times can have an affect on my serenity, so paying more attention to ways to reduce stress should help with compulsive behaviors like eating.

I am reminded with the counter how long it has been since I PMO'd and want to shout out that there was a time when I could not go for more than a day. I kept reading other stories of successes and failures and kept trying. I know that I have to focus on one day at a time. Who knows what will happen tomorrow so I will not worry about that today. This site has been the only way I have been able to put together days which have added up to months away from PMO. If I can stay on this path this many days then anyone can. I never thought I would be able to put together any amount of time away from PMO. It was my life for so many years. Not today!

 

I am in Costa Rica and triggered. I keep telling myself one is too many and a thousand is not enough when I think about PMO.