Beat compulsions like a boss / 90 days+

I wonder how I did to resist to a HUGE URGE today at 4 am? since 3-4 days my Reptilian brain try to trick my emotional brain and convince him that we need to look at nude women pics or something more exciting ! And everytime, I try to forget this desire by clicking on the Panic Button (this is by far the more helpful tool I know) or praying, or just looking at a funny video !

Well I woke up this morning at 4 am and the first idea which crossed my mind was to check some hot pics in Internet, but then I said wait a minute go to the bathromm grab a hand cream and visit your f***in favorite website ; I was already thinking about my favorite porn stars with a stupid smile on my face, but I didn’t move and stayed there in my sleeping room for almost 1 hour, thinking about a girl (a friend of mine) I really like, telling to myself that I deserve a better life without this evil porn and all his negative sides, that I need to continue my path through healing from this addiction and manage my self control as I did well those last weeks.

When those pornographic thoughs were gone, I succeed to fell asleep like a baby, however I dreamed my self having intense sex with a mature woman, and felt every single detail of this dream (almost better than reality) and of course I jerked off but wasn’t on purpose and kept a wood erection until I wake up...Is it considered as a relapse ??

Believe me guys, this ugly addiction is not easy to fight at all, but every day you succeed to deal with it, means that you're in progress and the challenging path you're going into is the right one, until you arrive at the top of the mountain. I'm very proud of myself and all of you guys who keep going.

As Bob Marley said : Get up, Stand up, Don't give up the fight
God bless