Hi guys, I had a relapse several weeks ago and found it so hard to stop again and my brain just went into meltdown and my brain was not my own. I am so pleased that I managed to stop again and I am feeling better and starting to get some sanity around things and starting to see clearly. I am having the itchy feelings of withdrawal especially at bed time but luckily I just keep making myself willing to sit through those uncomfortable feelings knowing that they get easier. Luckily music helps me through.