Today i listened to some podcast for porn/gaming addicts. In those they talked about how they helpless and have no direction in life. Any other hobby/activity feels empty and stall to them. That they feel everybody around them has a better life and how worthless they feel. I thought about my life right now and i feel very similar right now. I look youtube all day, meet friends time to time and do nothing for university. My head feels empty and there not much thoughts in my head anymore, it feels more like an autopilot. I neglected healthy eating, going to the gym regulary, reading books, healthy sleep habits. Between my first semestre and now where i repeat this semestre i had 6 months of no university. I jobbed 3 times a week for 4-6 hours, went to the gym 4-6 times a week, had planned meals, slept healthy and spend time with hobbys and friends. My life felt fullfiling and i was confident, my thoughts were clearer and my porn habbits where better. I had many 20+ days streaks and i explored my sexuality. Now since university started again i see how all the things i did and felt in this 6 months starts declining slowly. Is it in context with university ? Does it and its giant workload of learning material drag me down ?