Can't get past 1 week lately. Losing my mind

I've been stuck relapsing for such a long time now, I feel like the only way to end it, is to end my life.

I've only been able to reach 2 weeks like a month ago, and now I'm stuck relapsing every week.

Don't know what to do. Sometimes I think the only thing that will help me would be to have myself committed to a mental hospital and make sure I have no access to the internet.

If I had the money and the means, probably will work.

At the end of the day, if this is like detox, once we get past a certain period of time, we should be better.

No matter, how determine I am to quit, by the time I reach one week, feels like not such a terrible thing to take a peek. I feel like whats the harm. I even feel positive about it.

I seriously think there is nothing more depressing than resetting the elapsed time back to zero.