Cognitive scoring journal

Years ago I was seeing a psychiatrist for anger issues. During the sessions he used to give me the task of scoring myself from 1 to 10 for various questions. The exercise helped me realise that I felt most angry when I was idle. It also helped me observe a gradual improvement in my mood as the programme went on. I thought the same idea would be beneficial for my NoFap journey. Comments and an encouragement are greatly appreciated.

Day 10 PM free: scores 1 to 10
Overall Mood: 4
How much energy do you have: 3
How busy are you: 3
How is your bible reading/prayer life: 5
Are you busy with ministry to others today: 6
How captivated are you with Christ right now: 4
attraction to wife: 4
Desire to PM: 7
Confidence that I will stay PM free today: 9
Confidence that I will stay PM free this week: 4
Confidence that I will stay PM free this year: 1

Other comments: I am a little idle at work today.

 

Day 12 PM free: scores 1 to 10
Overall Mood: 5
How much energy do you have: 3
How busy are you: 5
How is your bible reading/prayer life: 3
Are you busy with ministry to others today: 6
How captivated are you with Christ right now: 6
attraction to wife: 5
Desire to PM: 2
Confidence that I will stay PM free today: 10
Confidence that I will stay PM free this week: 7
Confidence that I will stay PM free this year: 1

Comments: Been fighting the sin of idleness. Keeping busy with wholesome work.

 

Day 12 PM free: scores 1 to 10
Overall Mood: 8
How much energy do you have: 5
How busy are you: 2
How is your bible reading/prayer life: 3
Are you busy with ministry to others today:4
How captivated are you with Christ right now: 8
attraction to wife: 6
Desire to PM: 3
Confidence that I will stay PM free today: 7
Confidence that I will stay PM free this week: 4
Confidence that I will stay PM free this year: 1

Comments: Quiet day at work today. Will need to be careful. Also just realized I will have a quiet week next week. Will be careful. Had an amazing time of ministry last night. I love Christ right now.

 

Day 16 PM free: scores 1 to 10
Overall Mood: 8
How much energy do you have: 7
How busy are you: 4
How is your bible reading/prayer life: 4
Are you busy with ministry to others today:5
How captivated are you with Christ right now: 8
attraction to wife: 5
Desire to PM: 5
Confidence that I will stay PM free today: 7
Confidence that I will stay PM free this week: 5
Confidence that I will stay PM free this year: 1

Comments: No time to update my nofap journal over the weekend. I didn't relapse. I was in absolute love of the Gospel as I reflected on 1 Cor 6 and what Christ has saved me from. I have begun writing a book.

 

Day 17 PM free: scores 1 to 10
Overall Mood: 6
How much energy do you have: 5
How busy are you: 3
How is your bible reading/prayer life: 3
Are you busy with ministry to others today:4
How captivated are you with Christ right now: 5
attraction to wife: 5
Desire to PM: 7
Confidence that I will stay PM free today: 5
Confidence that I will stay PM free this week: 3
Confidence that I will stay PM free this year: 1

Comments: I am writing this in the morning. Looking at my above scores I recognize this will be a harder day. I had a dream last night that my wife discovered me watching porn. A fear I often carry. Holy Spirit keep my eyes on Christ today.

 

Thank you Prodigal. I certainly feel it helps. Staying active on nofap forums has helped me in my recovery in the past. However sometimes it is difficult to think up a meaningful thread post everyday. A cognitive score sheet makes it a lot easier.

 

Day 18 PM free:
I'm keeping busier these days and I am more productive. I have started writing a book on how to learn Arabic. I have also started learning Kurdish. My confidence that I will stay PM free is increasing. Yesterday was a marginally harder day but it passed.

scores 1 to 10
Overall Mood: 6
How much energy do you have: 7
How busy are you: 7
How is your bible reading/prayer life: 3
Are you busy with ministry to others today:2
How captivated are you with Christ right now: 7
attraction to my wife: 7
Desire to PM: 4
Confidence that I will stay PM free today: 10
Confidence that I will stay PM free this week: 5
Confidence that I will stay PM free this year: 3

 

I've realized this group doesn't get too much traffic. I am moving my reboot journal to the the reboot journals > 30 to 40 year old category. If anyone is interested in still following this thread. I will still be lurking around the Christian fapstronauts group.

 

I guess it is reflective my circumstances on the day. Yesterday I made myself busy with my book project. I also didn't have too much desire to O physically. I have been through many days like this and have developed a strong discipline to resist on these days. Idleness is one of the key ingredients to me falling off the wagon. Once I get this under control most other things fall into place.

How are you doing brother? I see you have fallen off the wagon again. What can you learn from it?