Coming back

Hey all, a few months back my wife called me out on my addiction. Should have seen it myself but couldn't. She was devastated and I felt terrible. I came here for support and found it.

About a month after stopping I was beginning to relapse. Of course I justified to myself like an idiot. She called me out again and I cried like a baby. I was so afraid of losing her and my kids... I still am...

A few more months have gone by and I have been doing much better. Getting more control over my life. I am beginning to feel tempted again though. You guys saved me when I thought it was all over. I'm back to keep myself on the right track to becoming the best version of myself.