I'm currently in a relationship which has been plagued with ruin over the past several years due to my porn addiction. I relapsed countless times and lied to my SO about it amongst other things. Of course it had become almost guaranteed that would be the case just by default at any given time because I had proven it time and again ad infinitum. Recently I've begun to take things seriously because I'm tired of the relentless onslaught that I've inflicted on my partner's feelings and has generally made me a shity person all around. To her surprise and my own as well I've made it past a week Mark of no p*** which is difficult to fathom considering Ive barely made it even 3 days over the past year or so without relapse. I have take it in action even going as far as to avoid p subs such as Instagram for example. Like I said I'm serious about this and I'm going about every measure to prevent any sort of deceptive behavior or lying to my SO. Really what this is the very beginning of trust rebuilding which has been slow but is now picking up momentum ... Anyways earlier today my so happened to check my phone which is fine by me specially considering I'm doing whatever I can 2 rebuild trust with her. For some reason I had received an email stating that I had used an iPhone to log into Instagram. I was not even aware I received an email about it therefore I was clueless when she asked me about it. Unfortunately due to all the past lies she took it as me playing dumb and stated that I'm full of s***. I mean how else would it appear? Basically I didn't log into Instagram and by telling her such I am lying because there's an email stating that indeed I had. Really f****** pisses me off that this has occurred because what little bit of positive progress due to honesty and trust on my part is basically a bunch of bulshit because of this incident. I don't know what to do and although this f****** pisses me off like a motherfucker, oddly (and thankfully) my first reaction is not to instantly runoff and relapse which was again the default behavior in my past.. I just feel kind of stuck being that I've been genuine but to her I'm full of s*** and there's really no way I can prove that that b******* didn't occur. So I'm just kind of ranting on here because of the seemingly futile efforts i feel I am restricted to... Has anyone else encountered a similar issue and if so what the f*** were you able to do about it?