Damn I'm lonely as hell

Had a few conclusions the last week.

I need to get out more. I'm more social than I was 4 years ago but I'm still spending my weekends at home watching porn and smoking weed. I'm quitting weed and its pretty easy I'm not worried about that. I made plans with my friends to go out into my white trash city. It's a good step, I find I'm good at talking to hicks, rednecks, and various other types of white trash cause I'm one myself, especially those of the opposite sex.

I need to try and be less unapproachable. I have a closed in way of carrying myself and I'm easily annoyed. I need to work on that. I'm not going to be Mr.social. Ever. That simply isn't me. I've been told by multiple people recently that I seem withdrawn and distant. I need to be more in the present.

Lastly I need to get over my fear of rejection and this transcends not just the social part of my life. I always take the path of least resistance. I need to take more risks. Maybe I'll start doing fentanyl I think that is a good step.

 

I think I might start wit dat purple drank first

wiggers unite

 

Just went on my second date with a girl.

 

Sorry brudda I'll save you a seat

 

It went well. Thank you!

Bumble ironically

I dropped that attitude and stopped thinking like sadsap and pulled myself up by my bootstraps and did something about it. It actually wasn't that hard once I started trying.

 

2 weeks