So its day 14 of my 90 day reboot, still fired up and going strong. The urges have become far less frequent which is good, but still popup now and then. As for fantasies, they are mostly active at night when I have more time to let my mind drift. I looked at a few pics on my phone this morning, more out of simple horniess than any forceful urge. Nothing hardcore or even overtly explicit. But I stopped myself short and closed the page and switched off my internet. I feel that as PMO is losing its grip on me, my grip on PMO is tightening. Everyday I go without, the weaker it gets! I've found my will power is now at least twice as strong as it used to be and is growing. And it's given me a powerful Epiphany. I have been tempted more than once to relapse, in fact only lastnight I had the oppturnity to look at what ever I wanted as I had the place to myself, but I flat out said NO and casually closed the browser... and its that last part... Casually that stood out. I didn't have to force myself like I thought I would. I just clicked the X in the corner and that was that. It seems that if I be firm with myself, and regulate, albeit very TIGHTLY, what I look at online then my brain follows suit. This has made me realise that my brain is far from being any sort of enemy and is my greatest ally in dealing with PMO. You just need to say to yourself with 100% authority that you aren't going to relapse and it follows along. Once again I found reversing triggers has helped hugely, seeing those few pics this morning actually fired me up (in a positive way). I now see triggers as something that "I could possibly have" or "what's waiting for me after my reboot". So far its seems to be working. Stay strong folks!
This is a very accurate description of forward progress. Well done, ThatGuyThere. 90 days will be yours, man!
