Day 7

Day seven of my hardmode reboot. No problems so far, but I know that will change. Still haven't had any urges or found any triggers yet to make me want PMO. Feeling emotional today, but not like I was yesterday where I just woke up depressed. Starting this reboot is more than just killing my addiction. It's about earning a chance at being with my true love again. It's about showing her that I can be an honest man, and it's about learning to be an honest man with her about EVERYTHING. Big things, little things, even random thoughts and emotions. Yesterday was and incredibly scary day for me. I had decided that it was the day I was going to reveal my deepest darkest secret to my wife. There was an act of infidelity that I had been lying about for a few years now. I knew that she had never believed.y lies, but couldn't bring myself to tell her. I fear that it might have put the nail in the coffin of what used to be our relationship, but I hope it showed her, at least a little bit, that I am committed to being 100 percent honest and truthful with her, not matter what may come. I don't know what will come of this, and to be honest I dont know if she does either yet. There is just so much going on. I want her to take me back more than anything, but I know I have no right to ask for it, or expect it. All I can do is keep this up and hope, but also know that no matter what happens, I will be there, be honest, and continue to do what I can to make our relationship better, even if that relationship is just being friendly with each other so our beautiful girls don't have to suffer.