So today at class I felt suddenly really happy, it felt like eating a really good meal or like someone popped a dopamine capsule in my mind, And it was a C coding class lol. It might be a mood swing though? Urges increased as well as sense of indulging life which feels weird. I enjoy building the tension but also quite afraid I might relapse. Although I promised myself to pass this November clean. Keep on your journey to freedom and thanks for reading.