Depression hit me hard

You seem like a very smart guy, and your English is very good. You know in the United States, only 20% of the population are bilingual and you have already outdone 80% of us. I personally think Portuguese is hard. I tried Spanish back in high school, didn't work out. I am now learning German.
Just from one article you post, I can already find something very special in you. You just need to do the same. Believe me, I'm just a guy like you. I have been depressed, and I still have low self-esteem. It's okay, we will work on it. I am currently in college and I have never had girlfriends or sex, I used to think maybe it's because I'm Asian (Chinese btw). But now I refuse to believe that. Girls like guys who are confident, and they didn't see that in me.
Confidence is something that can be gained through hard work. I am now trying to force myself to talk to strangers, even though girls can still scare the shit out of me. lol.
You got this, everybody has something to be proud of. Keep up the good work!

 

chenyuchenme is right, just look at your own post, your English is great and your analysis of your own thoughts tells me that you are a very insightful and intelligent person. But don't stop there, look further and you will find that:

1. You are capable of overcoming your anxieties and fears, which you've proven by giving a public speech at your congregation.

2. You are striving to better yourself - you being here on NoFap is proof of that.

3. You are capable of creating close relationships with the people around you, fiends and family.

Those are all admirable qualities and I gathered them just from your post here! What I'm trying to do is show you that you have things to be proud and confident about, you just have to look for them, and as you can see you don't have to look very far.

 

I'm 7 days in 3rd night I have trouble sleeping due to sexual tension and was just about to write a similar thread lol. first 6 days i was a productive machine and today i barely put myself to do my goals and did them poorly. Mini depression hit me aswell and now i'm trying to "deal" with it. There must be some brain chemical reactions that make us vulnerable in some days and in others makes feel on top of the world. Usually weak people give in when they are vulnerable , but we as human beings must not forget that we have one of the most powerful tool - intelligence. Just as it can make you feel unworthy it can make you feel like king. Combined with awareness of your body you become unstoppable. Yes it is hard but it's worth striving for. I just make this kinds of self-motivating text in my mind with hope they work, they must work...

 

Dude, your brain is going through some big changes right now. Mood swings are totally typical during a reboot. Let your brain rebalance, throw in some good diet and exercise, and you will pass this depression phase in no time man. It will definitly pass.

 

Just hang in there, a couple weeks in I went through a spell of some pretty ill emotions. Pretty close to what I consider depression. Was just feeling super self-conscious, down, pissy, etc. It passed though, all feeling eventually pass. Remember that.