Desperate

I have not been on this site for a good few months now, but have been trying to do nofap over the months. I dunno what it is, but I've been going on short nofap streaks for almost a year now with no sign of improvement. The farthest I've been able to get was 21 days. I know that there are no real shortcuts on this path, but I am looking for any kinds of information that I may not be aware of. I don't know what to do as it seems a bit futile at the moment. I will state the lifestyle changes that I have made in the past year in order to avoid hearing standard advice:

*I have a job that consumes a good chunk of my day...so this obviously eliminates the risk that comes with being at home all the time.
*I have been doing Crossfit almost every day. This does help somewhat as it is a good release of energy
*I do meditate although not for a long time. I am aware of the sexual feelings when they arise.
*I usually spend the majority of my day out of the house on days off from work.
*I have been writing a lot.
*I have been reading nofap literature and trying to boost my moods with inspirational songs, posts etc etc etc.
*Some people may suggest porn blockers. They are not applicable to me as I do not usually like porn. I am easily turned on by more simple things. It doesn't take much to trigger horny feelings.


I am currently looking into diet changes and doing volunteer work again. Dunno if that changes much. I am also looking into a way to stay away from the computer entirely. Although this is quite difficult because I rely on the computer for communication with faraway friends and also writing.

Overall, I am feeling hugely discontent with my life and often depressed and filled with anxiety. What I really want to do is travel and/or express myself in some way. As the matter of fact, if this continues by next year I plan on just leaving and just travel around. This structured 9-5 lifestyle simply doesn't work for me and I am close to just abandoning it entirely.

I appreciate those of you who have read this whole emo rant. I could really use some guidance at least on the nofap part.