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Did I relapse?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Fought a Lot ☺, Mar 8, 2022.

  1. Did I relapse?
    i saw an advertisement of an app called mika. It was a very simple app where you can go live and/or see a live broadcast.
    I opened and installed it.
    I saw another app's ad in it so I installed that app.
    Little did i know that the video calling facility in that app was filled with callgirls and sluts
    Started doing free video chat in that app. It gives 3 free tickets to every new member for accessing free video chat. So I was randomly matched with an Indian aunty. She showed her tongue and acted as if she wanted to lick me and started showing her pu**y! I wasn't there for that! I looked at it for maybe 2 to 3 seconds before I got reminded and convinced myself to not give up and betray myself. So
    I skipped.
    But I showed dick to the next girl because it had kind of aroused me
    She didn't react and skipped when she recognised that it was a penis.
    I dodn't think about anything vulgar or pornographic neither did I touch my penis. I only showed it to her. And nothing else lustful happened
    So my 3 tickets were finished and
    I came out and tried to call. It said that I had no balance
    I went to omegle
    I showed my penis
    I dodn't think anything vulgar
    I showed 2 3 times and everytime got skipped with getting a weird and disgusting reaction from the girls. I
    got bored
    reminded of nofap
    came back
    go back to app
    dick out only no touching no pressure only cleaning and no showing to anyone
    tried again nothing happened
    came back went to sleep.
    Did I relapse?
     
  2. I believe everyone has to come up with their own definition of a relapse. For me, I've defined it as anytime I intentionally search for porn, visit cam sites, visit escort sites, or visit adult chat rooms even if I don't master bate. The key to my definition is that it something I purposely did and not something I just happen to come across. So by my definition, if it was the first time you went to the app, didn't know what it was and realized what it was and closed the app, then I would say not a relapse. But the fact that you went back to it several times, by my definition is a relapse
     

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