I had 28 days without PMO and I relapsed a few days ago (without porn). Today on 4 days streak I started to masturbate but I've stopped after 5-10 seconds, thinking that I can stop my urges - I am not an animal. I haven't got orgasm and ejaculation. My mind told me that this is bad and I have to stop and go to other activities that are going to change my mind from dirty thoughts. Did I relapsed or not?
Definitely not. You are on the right track if you can tell yourself in the middle of masturbation that this is wrong and I should stop now. The same happened with me a handful of times. In the past I would've never had the willpower to stop right in my track. The moment I touched myself then I knew I'm gonna lose. That changed. I'm stronger now and can fight my mind better than ever before. The ideal is just now to strive to not even get to the point of touching yourself. Good luck on your journey. You're not alone in this fight.
Don't give a fuck about whatever's in the past, brother. Besides, I don't think you've even edged so a relapse is a far cry away. (btw, humans are animals too)
