I've been away from porn for about 45 days now. I've taken a turn for the worse, I'm deeply depressed anf cry all the time. My libido most of the time feels none existant and my feelings for my girlfriend just aren't there and this upsets me most of all. Im stuck in a loops of despair and feel like my life is falling apart.
Everybody's recovery looks different. Here's an article about withdrawal symptoms and testimonials from others: http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/what-does-withdrawal-from-porn-look-like Sometimes the symptoms we experience are delayed and can happen a few weeks after quitting. I experienced an emptiness phase during my second month. You can read about that phase here: http://www.recoverynation.com/recovery/recovery_workshop_000.php Other recommendations that can help your mental state... do you journal? Do you exercise? Are you eating healthy? Are you getting out of the house? Are you talking to your girlfriend about your recovery or have you kept it a secret? We also PMO to cover up more serious mental problems such as depression, anxiety, and OCD. If you are feeling completely overwhelmed then you might need to see a professional. Some of these things you can't simply endure. Sometimes it's not because of a lack of willpower. Don't let pride prevent you from getting the help you need. It's ok to admit that this addiction is too strong for one person to handle alone.
Thank you for the advice, the links have also helped a great deal. I hope your also doing well with your recovery.
To reconnect with your girlfriend, see the links in my signature for FANOS, nonsexual cuddling and karezza. She is also welcome here and we do have a private group for SOs as well.
Dude you are flatlining! That is great! The flatline is a reboot period when you feel just as you explained, and yea it does feel shitty. Buut the good thing about it is that your brain is healing itself as we speak! You will probably feel better and better every day from now for few days and guess what than? You get out of that flatline feeling like a fucking superhero!! Don't give up man this is all normal and for the best!