I'm wondering if anybody else feels physical and emotional pain from their addiction. I'm noticing, actually just really realizing, that with PMO, I am basically using MYSELF as a sex object. So I am degrading myself and developing a relationship with MYSELF, an unhealthy one at that. It splits me into two. When I am not active in my addiction, I am interacting with the world and relating in a beautiful way. When I AM active in my addictive, I am in my own world, and it is just me and myself. I really think this addiction strikes so many chords that are mental, emotional and spiritual. The issue is that I get cocky when I start to feel normal again. But a relapse is a relapse. I have to remember that! And I'm sure that most of us aren't used to feeling normal, used to being happy. But we have to if we want to enjoy our lives. So my goal as things get better is to do more creative/awesome things and really follow a spiritual/wholesome path. Thoughts?