I have this thought pattern recurring quite often in days/weeks of depression (confidence low) period.When I see some really really hot woman say 12/10 usually 10 something years older than me (i am 22) I wish not to penetrate her but because of the fact that I believe I cannot possibly attract her I imagine that she is in my house and I can just Spoiler: * Possibly triggering text! * creep to her, see her sexy panties, go to her drawers and just see her sexy bras maybe ask her if she dont want to show it, go see her when she is showering/changing clothes, see her ankle socks on her beautiful feet and just come to them and masturbate on it. Or I can go to her or maybe when she sees me she can wank me and I would not fear to come prematurely because she wouldn’t mind to do it again a again. Basically I dream about being a little shy boy in front of her and she allowing it. Now I know that this is wicked but I want to solve this issue because I believe there is an opportunity to become more confident in front of this category of women and therefore don’t allow them to take my semen in form of my energy (thinking dreaming about it). Does anyone have such fantasies in particular?