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Extreme emotions coming up during reboot?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by zombieslayer, Mar 4, 2021.

  1. Mar 4, 2021 #1
    zombieslayer

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    I went 9ish days without porn and I thought I had escaped completely. I just relapsed yesterday (it wasn't satisfying) but I noticed that just before I relapsed, I had a bit of a meltdown.

    I had to call a friend and almost quit a project we are working on together. He had to talk me off the ledge. I think it was good for me to talk to him and I'm thankful he calmed me down and stayed grounded during our conversation. However, the emotions right before I called him (and several hours before the relapse) were so fucking intense. I cried and threw a fit. I didn't know what to do. It felt like I was unstable, almost like my emotions were completely out of control (or nearly-completely out of control).

    Has anyone else experienced this?

    I think I need to communicate more with people and share my feelings. It felt like a lot of stuff was bottled up inside of me and the emotions were SO INTENSE. I felt anger, frustration, fear, and also some kind of sappy loving friendship/appreciation type of emotion. I went back and forth between these, and mostly felt that last emotion after talking with my friend. I was glad that he was willing to talk and it made me cry.

    So many emotions.
     
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  2. Mar 4, 2021 #2
    Vir

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    At about 9 days I experienced wild euphoria.

    Do you have people to talk things over with. Helps for me.
     
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  3. Mar 4, 2021 #3
    zombieslayer

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    I don't have many people I can really open up to... I think I have a hard time opening up.
     
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  4. Mar 4, 2021 #4
    A8X

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    When you have an ongoing addiction, regardless if it is porn, alcohol, drugs, food, gambling etc - one thing is common: Suppression of emotions. This is what most addictions are all about. When you stop using your drug of choice, you start to feel everything that you have previously been suppressing. What you experience is normal, i have been there too. What you need to do is learn a new way of taking care of yourself. This is what you learn in 12-step programs or in addiction group therapy. You will get tools, guidance and a safe space to open up in. If you don't have that, practice telling how you feel to your friends or write about it on this forum. It would be great if you can tell someone about your porn addiction and that you are on a journey to recover. A big thing for me was realizing that people didn't abandon me because i shared stuff that i was ashamed of. And if they did then it would be for the better because then i know they are not my real friends.
     
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