Hi everyone I am 22 years old . I have been mastributing regularly since i ias six years old. I continuesly tried to stop it . But it could not do it . Sometime i i would be lilely to mastribute to images and imaginations in mind . I got smartphone atvage of 17 . But i i us to watch porn very few times. But mastributed daily . Sometime 3 to 4 times. Then internet wave came and now internet waas almost free. But i did not watch porn regularly . Then i became 18 years old . I found how to watch porn . Since then i started watching porn . Sometimes i would mastribute to sex stories also that i read on internet . In simple words i was abusing internet more than benifiting from it . I was never friend with girls although i i wanted it desperately i never showed it . Everything was going fine with my erections to porn and stories until one day an indian youtuber "Salil Jamdar" made a series of 3 videos on porn addictions . I was shocked by it . I tried to leave porn again but no goal so got relapsed . Then i was 22. On my 22nd birthday my marriage was finalised to be destined after 16 months . I was more than happy . . . B
But then i reminded myself about porn addiction . I was not sure if i had pied or not but i i wanted to leave pmo to be good and eligible person for my wife . Now i had a goal in my life i.e. motivation and target. I started doing nofap. For 20 days it was going smooth and no problem . But on 11 th day i missed morning wood i freaked got about it . But i i fou no trusted sexologist in my city . Then i started to searched for it and i found that maybe i was in flatline period .on day 14 i got morning wood 3 times throughout night . I was happy . I started taking ashwagandha(indian herb for testosterone boost) i regularly got morning wood but weak intensity . I stopped using it and found no morning wood on day 18 im scared as hell . What should i do and how long i i have to face dead turky during flatine . Many have to say about 2 years. But i i ha to get ok before 16 months . Plese tell me how much time it is going to recover . Also i i thought one day by getting up dead turky by watching porn . But i did not watched . Sometimes erotic images appears in youtube but i iry not to give them importance. Not mastribute, no porn , but what orgasm is refers here i don't understand .is it the one we feel after sex . Or feel after seeing erotice image in heart
