Family

I went to visit my grandparents for the first time in twenty years! Wow.
Thank you @NoFap! Thank you for the courage to make the step. Thank you for the self-confidence.
We agreed I'll call them next week.
The closer I got there, it started looking like a dream, entering a trance state.
So nervous, so energetic, breathing heavy. When I entered the town where my family lives, it felt like coming home... I became euphoric.
I'm happy I saw them, that I didn't come too late. They're over 80 years old.
I also met a cousin. I hope we can be friends again.

 

It wasn't so much what they did. But what I did. I went the wrong way as a teenager. And all these years I was scared to face them. My life still isn't perfect. But I couldn't wait anymore. Time's ticking away.
I can see the link you make between a closer family and a more peaceful planet. I still store resentment towards my father. I don't know how I'll get over that. But I'll work on it.

 

I'm looking for articles on the subject of forgiveness, moving on. Same as with handling pmo addiction, gathering information is probably a good place to start. Let's put the internet to good use for a change. Good luck to you.

 

Through forgiveness I'm looking for peace. I have to move on before I can enjoy life.

Thank you kindly.

 

"Welcome back to the family." Those kind words I've been lucky to hear my grandfather say today. Now I'll have to work hard to keep them true.
I met my uncle and aunt too. We're meeting again soon.
I'm collecting phone numbers, of people I love. Dear NoFap, my heart is healing.