Feel So Guilty After Minor Slip ups

You must have the eyes of a jedi, the idea is to never look at anything that dose not induce growth. All media is injested through our eyes the same food is with our stomachs. Strust your soul, if the soul says to advert your gaze, advert your gaze. Our eos are not the source of our wisoms our spirits are. There is also the choice you have when you look at anything on how you internally interprit that moment. The trick is harnessing your masculene energy and adverting it into everything you do.

 

I wish I had the answer, but you are much further than me.
I suggest journaling all the things you like about non PMO. the benefits and joys of it. maybe that will keep the positive front and center, so the slightly sexual things look less "fun" and more like "failure, a place I dont want to be again."

congrats on those streaks - thats a big deal!!! stay strong

 

What I'm starting to realise is the guilt you feel when you make a minor mistake is the addiction trying to get you to relapse. I'm a spiritual person so I view this as a demon perched on my shoulder, whispering in my ear telling me things like "Well you already made a mistake, might as well go all the way!" and then when you relapse, the voice changes to "Well you relapsed, why not just relapse again and again!" and then when I binge and feel terrible, it becomes "You're a failure, you're a loser, why did you listen to me, you're pathetic! Wallow in the failure and watch porn again!"

Learn to ignore this voice. Monk mode or not, minor mistakes are not going to destroy your progress unless you allow them to. The real skill is not in entirely avoiding slip-ups. You could spend a year in a cave meeting nobody and on day 366 walk out the cave and be triggered by a woman walking past. Is this your fault? No, it's human nature. The real skill is in pushing past mistakes, not avoiding them entirely. The former is basically impossible. The latter shows strength of character and conviction.