FEELING VERY LONELY RIGHT NOW.....HELP PLEASE...

Hey, you out there... I want to tell you, I am feeling very lonely right now. Tears are flowing like they will never stop. What an irony is this? The world contains more than 7 billion people, but still, I am feeling desperately alone. I am going to be 25 this December, but still, I feel that I haven't achieved anything yet that I can be proud of. I feel like a fucking loser in this life. I have let myself down , I have let my mother down, who does her best everyday for me, but I couldn't do anything for her. Wish, God never gives a useless son like me to any saint like my mom. I have run behind a dead relationship for years trying to win the girl's heart. But, in doing so, I lost myself. I lost touch with my inner soul. I have an alcoholic emotionally unavailable father who used to abuse and beat my mother. I threw him out of our house, but in doing so, lost our financial support. I have a dream. The path is very tough. I don't have money to support my journey. I tried once, but failed. I lost people around me who always used to stand by me. And, finally, this fucking masturbation addiction, it has sucked my life. It has turned me into just empty shell of my true version. I want to get out of this life. I know I can do this. I have it in myself. Just feeling lonely right now. Any motivational words will be highly appreciated.. please I need it badly.

 

I fully agree with your views, brother. I have understood the relation between my stress management and my masturbation addiction. I have used that shit as a way to get temporary relief, failing to realise that it will eventually prolong the issue, let alone cure it.
I also fully acknowledge the view that it takes a lot of time, patience and hard work to get things done. I am going to calm myself down and start slowly in the direction of my dreams. Thanks for the reply brother once again. It means a lot.

 

Thanks for your kind words bro. It gives tremendous confidence to see someone who has gone through what I am going through and have got out of it. Definitely, the situation is very tough, but I won't ever give up. Never. I will definitely make it no matter what it takes to get there. I will try to act from my highest self. As someone rightly said," life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to that situation", I will take control of that 90% that's in my hand , rather than dwelling too much on the remaining which isn't in my hand. Thanks once again for your reply.

 

I have already expressed my feelings to my mother and asked for her forgiveness. But, as you know, mothers don't show their pain generally to their son. She said, "It's ok. If now you have realised your mistake, it's never too late to change. I am very happy that at least now you are on the right path".
I will try my best to turn everything around. Frankly speaking, though I don't feel very motivated right now, but still I will start to inculcate the values of discipline, hard work, commitment in my life slowly. I understand there is a great tendency to make critical decisions when such huge rush of emotions flow, but I will try to not make any permanent decision out of any temporary emotion. Thanks, by the way, for sharing your views brother.

 

Btw, the video was great.

 

Thanks for your kind words. It means a lot to me, especially when I am feeling so depressed. I know, pain and pleasure are part and parcel of life. Sometimes, we feel happy, sometimes we feel depressed. Nothing is permanent in this world.
This is definitely one of the worst phases of my life, but I promise I will somehow get out of this. And, yes I needed a support system right now, which I got from the beautiful people like you here. Thanks once again. It means a lot to me.

 

Sure, I will.

 

Oh yes, absolutely. That goes without any saying friend. How could I be depressed anymore, when there are beautiful people like you.
Last night, because of few reasons, I got too emotional, but I'm fine now. I have started to slowly bring my life back on track, get some momentum. Hope, next time, when I type here, I will be writing from a place of strength and not weakness. Thanks once again for caring so much. It reinforces my belief about love and humanity. Best wishes.

 

Sure, I will.

 

Oh absolutely! That is what precisely I am trying to do. One day at a time, one task at a time.
I remember a beautiful quote by Will Smith at this moment, "You don't build a big massive wall in a day. All you try to do is place each brick as perfectly as you can every single day, and soon you have a wall".
Yes, the task and challenges ahead of me are hard, but I am gonna show them that I am no way that soft. And, yes trying really hard to stay clean, though it seems a long struggle for me, but an inevitable one. Thanks once again for boosting me. Best wishes to you also brother.