FEELING VERY LONELY RIGHT NOW.....HELP PLEASE...

The current point you're at, won't be your final destination as long as you keep on fighting. All great people, and personalities came out from struggles.
Struggle, and pain only change us. That's the way whole nature works. At least one good thing can be you have huge friend base here who don't even know you and yet they're doing their best to conform you.

Anyways, i'd want you to read this quote by a well known rapper Tupac, maybe you can relate it to your own situation;

“Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete? Proving nature's laws wrong, it learned to walk without having feet. Funny, it seems to by keeping it's dreams; it learned to breathe fresh air. Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else even cared.”
― Tupac Shakur, The Rose That Grew from Concrete