Femdom

Hello all.
I'm new in this forum. I'm from Portugal, and I'm 32 years old.
Well, I have Cerebral Palsy, and this affected me a lot, on Intrrpersonal relationships, above at all with Women.
I started on 2012, with cam shows and my addiction became more Extreme. And só, I discovered Femdom. I tought that I have find my place. But, I started to do things that I never tought that It was acceptable. Example : Anal Masturbation.
I had 2 presencial Domination sessions (1 in September/October of 2018 and another in February/March of 2019).
After, one month without masturbation but with Porn in May of 2020, I discovered that It's possible to change.

 

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Thank You! Nowadays, I'm feeling better now. I can do it without P.
I have a long Journey to walk

 

Nowadays, It's difficult. One example: In Western Societies, for example, the population is older, so When You work You have colleagues of other generations. Dating apps?! Sometimes, but not always. The most important thing is that I'm walking the right path. No matter, the results. It's the process.

 

Yesterday, was dificult.
I started to fantasize again, about Femdom. But I do not MO. Only, some Femdom P, but I quit Before It was too late.

 

Thank You for the post.
I think that P is hardest because of emotional response. You shut down the rationality, and get involved in emotional response. And that's It. Relapsing again.