Finding out about the reasons for PMO

Hi there,

I only just joined this site. For a long time I have felt that my porn consumption is getting out of hand and I want to do something about it...

So consequently I want to know why I go down the route of watching porn in the first place.

I am in a healthy relationship, I have good friends, a job I like, though demanding, and I excercise as well.

Though I find that I am exhausted after masturbating and that it gets in the way of engaging with all the things mentioned above.

I used to excercise more but over the last 2 years I have only ever found time to do so on the weekends or in the evenings. Mostly I am so tired from work on a Friday that I look forward to a free day. I have a lie in and when I wake up is when it starts. I tend to stay in bed for a while on my phone starting to contact cam girls or watching porn and all the good resolutions I had for the day go overboard as I get hooked on my fantasies. I don't want porn to get in the way like that, but I really don't know why I do this and how to stop it.

I really wonder what the reason is to engage in destructive, self-sabotaging behaviour when I know what would be the right thing to do.

Any thoughts? Anyone who had the same problem?

Btw, I actually don't think I am heavily addicted. I can go weeks without porn, mostly when my weekends are filled with things to do and when I have sex with my girl-friend. I don't miss it either during these times.