First day to NoFap

It is my first day to nofap, I discover this wonderful forum via google when searching porn addiction. I gradually realized that I became an addict to it and wasted too much time quiting then relapsing without knowing the mechanism, the science behind it. I find I have some of the problems described here, like the lack of motivation to pursuit life happiness, becoming more disconnected to friends, etc, but I also find I have more psychological problems related to this bad habit than then physical ones. Maybe it has something to do with my sports habits, working out in the gym, playing tennis, playing soccer. I used to watch porn averagely 3 times a week, sometimes even I didn't really feel like to, I still kinda forced myself to do it. But I would condemn myself afterwards. It is painful. I wish to lower the very high bar level of dopamine from porn so that I can feel the serenity deep down like I once could do, the feeling that I am able to be a better me and the rushing from bed every morning when I open my eyelids towards the brand new day. This is the reason I start this streak. I don't know how long I can be abstained from it, but the longer the better.

I am currently living in the Netherlands, have long distance relationship and no sex experience before. Wish to update every night before going to bed with "no fapping today".