Former fapper's diary

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by SmiesznyKot, Nov 24, 2015.

  1. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys!

    I'm new here. I'm 18 years old and I come from Poland. From today's perspective I can say that I'm addicted from PMO.
    Some time ago I discovered this website. It seemed to be very interesting for me, so I decided to view forum posts. That was incredible how many people want to quit masturbation and this thread happened to me noteworthy. That day I also decided to start my first NoFAP and I continue this until today. At the moment this is my 19th day and I'm proud that I managed to do it. My main goal is to survive at least 90 days.

    Today I feel big urge and desire to watch porn. I'm seeking any excuses to do it. Almost I fapped, but I reminded myself about traveled distance and long-term profits.
    I decided to create an account here, because I realised myself that there are people with similar problems, who can motivate another human. As a member of this amazing forum I'm obliged to fight against my own sick desires and help out other people!

    Till next time!
     
  2. Boomer49

    Boomer49 Fapstronaut

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    SK,
    I think you did the right thing by coming to this site. I've been spending a lot of time here reading and posting. It helps to keep me busy and takes my mind off my desires. The people here are a great support. Keep up the good work and use this place as a mechanism for not PMOing.
    B49
     
  3. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Welcome back!

    Today it's my 24th day of NoFap. I'm so confused, beacause when I woke up I realised that I had wet dreams. It's weird feel when your brain subconsciously want to do things, which you avoid in conscious way. After this night I started to gloat hatred PMO and it became for me just disgusting. But I enjoy the fact I can see positive results of the lack of PMO and it's encouraging not to relapse to previous state. Moreover, after reading many stories from the forum I feel committed for Fapstronauts to win with this demon, because I'm in easier situation than others who have achieved this!
     
  4. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Day #26

    I feel amazing! I didn't suppose I am able to survive this period, but... I did this! Soon I'm going to reach the first target - 30 days. Just incredible!
     
  5. DonSphinx

    DonSphinx Fapstronaut

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    Well done bro! Amazing work.
     
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  6. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Hello again!
    Today I achieved my first goal - I survived 30 days without PMO. I can't believe it, because some time ago Porn was an integral part of my life and I believed people who told masturbation is healhy and necessary to normal life. At this point I know it's not true. I live without this much better, because as I mentioned before I have more energy to do anything and more often I perceive people as people with feelings not as sexual objects.
    In the nutshell, so far my life has become simply valuable.

    Maybe it's a small step, but I see big changes and I know the effort wasn't pointless. I want to thank users of this forum for a big support and motivation to action. I owe a lot to you.

    Next goals - 60,90 and 1000 days! See you soon!
     
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  7. bastion

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    Good luck, man, I am rooting for you!
     
  8. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Day #51

    Welcome again and Merry Christmas to everyone!
    These holidays are just wonderful for me. Spending time with family is great opportunity to improve my social skills. I feel I'm becoming more outgoing and laid-back. It's easier I manage to find topics of coversation. Simple words can make me pleased and I'm very happy about this. Sometimes I don't recognize myself because of that.

    But what about NoFap? I don't forget about this. I remember about beneftis of being 'clean' and I try to repress urges. At this moment it's much easier to control them. Everyday I get experience, which make me stronger and stronger. All the same I intend not to give ass since now I'm having one of the best times of my life!
     
  9. OMG SK u inspire me

    I only watch porn once a week (though I often masturbate without it) yet I still can't have streak longer than 10 days. But knowing that you manages to get more than 50 days streak despite ur addiction to porn makes me feel that I could accomplish the same thing
     
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  10. steez

    steez Fapstronaut

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    Tak trzymać ! :)
     
  11. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Yeah, you also can do this. Just think about possible results of this action. When I started I knew that it would be hard at the beginning and... it was. I had a few situations when I almost failed, but browsing successful stories and reading about long-term benefits made me more invulnerable and durable.

    So my friend... You're able to defeat this addiction, but you have to take concrete steps. I would like assure you that every step will be easier than previous. Good luck and stop fapping :D.
     
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  12. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Dziękuję i mam zamiar tak trzymać :p.
     
  13. Boomer49

    Boomer49 Fapstronaut

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    Ach, Polski. Nie znam go. HA!

    *B49*
     
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  14. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Polish language is hard language. But you wrote correctly :D!
     
  15. Boomer49

    Boomer49 Fapstronaut

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    Got to love technology today and Google translator. HA!

    *B49*
     
  16. SmiesznyKot

    SmiesznyKot Fapstronaut

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    Yeah, but google translate really often makes mistakes, so i can tell that you are a lucky beggar :D.
     
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