Hey guys, been at this a while now and I can not seem to achieve any consistency. I go about 20 - 30 days and then I find myself being sucked back into old habits. This time around it was not a hardcore porn binge. For that I am happy but I still got sucked in by sexy videos on youtube and actually watched a few minutes of hentai. And again my streak is broken. I feel a mixture of anger, disappointment and sadness this time around. I am literally thinking what the f.... is wrong with me. It is not like I don't know all the ill effects and I still find myself going back to my old habits. I know the things to keep away from and my triggers but I get to a point where it is almost like I don't care. I have have even suffered with PIED before but still I just succumb. I am angry and disappointed right now. I need to get over this hurdle. A challenge for me is that I had a GF and we broke up about year now. This relationship was a sexual outlet for me. Since I no longer have this I eventually fall back to PMO as a substitute for release, companionship and real sex. Tired of beating myself up over this, I go good for a while and then relapse. How do I manage this with no avenue for a real relationship right now. Does having someone to talk to help? Maybe I should try a virtual support group, any suggestions? I have never had a conversation with anyone about my problem with the exception of posting on this forum.