Genuine question.

Yeah you answered it yourself, you are young, I know it's probably tough to have these thoughts and especially when you are seeing others get the things you desire, but it's all about time. Your porn use has probably escalated from this fear, just like mine had, but don't be afraid of the future or worry about the past, take your life one day at a time and seriously work out the problems in your life, but forget the future. Sadness is in the past and fear and anxiety and in the future, only by concentrating on the now can you truly be open to life.

I suggest getting away from porn, maybe seeking SAA aswell as your therapy to learn from other with similar problems from all different walks of life, how to deal with this and overcome it. That is the key, becuase obsessing on the sexual throguh porn because of loneliness will not do you any goo, your confidence will die and you will view any potential partner in different and sometimes unhealthy ways.

I hope this helps, if you've any questions just drop me a message.

 

You only need to find one, think more about finding a best friend rather than some woman who is super attractive, rather find someone who you can make a family with, someone who you can trust with all your deepest darkest secrets, raise kids together, take care of each other, and love Jesus together.

Good job going to see a therapist, you are a braver man than me! I was in the same place at 19 with the same obsession in porn. I really see it as I was lost in trying to get more and more pleasure, my addiction was taking me where it intends to take me, to death, it was taking me towards being that man who was alone watching porn or acting out with people until the day I died of some sexual disease... Take it one day at a time. Remember, our desires don't define us as opposed to what our sex obsessed world tells us, they're liars and slaves to their sexual desires.