Guilt, etc.

Beyond the fapping, I realize that I have been an addict for a pretty long time. Totally functioning, successful (from most appearances, and well liked...but I realize I have tanked a whole lot of things via addiction, porn being just one. As I try to move on and get into a post-addiction phase, I have a sense of regret and guilt about the things I have screwed up. Sort pissed/self-loathing sensation...Its not helpful and draws me back into addictive behaviors. I get I just need to move on, look forward, and best positive but that gets hard at times...anyway, glad to be here and move forward.