Health Issues prevent me from moving forward. The universe hates me

I know this. I was ill for what felt like eternity, almost 6 weeks from start till I felt good again. Lost 5 kilos, it will take another time to be 100%. In the meantime, I lost a GF.

These are the hardest tests and pressures. And nobody can help you, its 100% up to you. Nothing anyone says or does, does not improve how u feel.

Dunno.. best way is honestly to accept it, because the resistance makes it all harder and more painful, possibly even prolonging the recovery.

It will all get better.

Also, it sounds u was overtraining to me. It can weaken your body, contrary to what u desire from it. And u are very hard in yourself. Same as me...

 

Did you get the shot?

 

I understand how you feel, when I was 16 I injured my shoulder and back and it led to well over a year of rehabs and constant pains that never stopped, sometimes even waking me up from sleep. It really does feel horrible and it leads you to feel depressed and sick, however, you mustn't fall. I know that it sounds easy to "keep your head up" and "stay positive" because while you're going through it it feels like this torment is never gonna stop, but it's gonna get better.
Maybe your problem is with allergies or something like that? It's spring so everything is blooming, nature is waking up from the winter, and your symptoms: are shortness of breath and blurry vision (I'm not sure about the chest pain tho, but if you're young and still growing, that might be just because of you still growing).

Don't stress yourself too much with relapses. If you're already worried about your health, adding stress from relapses is not gonna be beneficial. Now I'm not saying to stop Nofap, no, but try not to stress that much.
I have a little tip: Instead of focusing on how long your streaks are, focus on how many times you relapsed this month. Let's say you relapsed 12 times this month... ok next month you're gonna relapse 9 times, then 6 times, then 3 times, and on and on.
The best is to not count your days but if it's hard to not count the days, try to count how many times you relapsed a month and then make that number smaller when the next month comes.