I was triggered by the post "Beware of sissy hypnosis" and I decided to create an account here. I 've been addicted for a long time, but the last 15 years I slowly grew out of my dark and bond and lonely life. I became a christian, and from that point my strongest conviction to become and to stay free is that I (and I think all people) need unconditional love and loving relationships and connections. Keywords in my life were: Forced feminization and from that worship the c#ck (sort of homosexuality) Wanting to be a girl - sissification Obsessed by the look of women Masturbating, self suck. And the last step was erotic hypnosis and handsfree orgasms. Yep, I went down the rabbit hole very far. Nowaday I feel quiet okay, peaceful and the need of using porn is getting less and less, develop some insights I appreciate to share with you readers. And I feel a need to talk about my strange longings. I believe it will help me to clean up my heart in a deeper way. I hope my posts will help the reader to get his / hers life back. Free from porn, able to love.