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I decided to make an account after reading many threads here that I relate to. I'm addicted to sissy porn. I'm not sure when it started, but I can hardly get aroused by anything else. When I'm out in the world I have eyes only for women. I also only like sissy captions that have biological women in them. I think it is mostly a self degradation thing for me.

Today I've come up with sort of an extreme decision. The only thing I use to access porn is the tablet I'm typing on right now. It's a pretty crappy tablet tbh. I got it for 99¢ when I bought a phone. I'm considering destroying it to help me stick to nofap. I've tried hiding it away, but it's too easy for me to want to pick it up for YouTube or Reddit. I think I need to destroy this device that has been a gateway to so much bullshit. I make decent enough money that I could buy a better one once I feel like I'm in control again. I have no computer to fall back to. My phone is complete garbage and can't even access the internet without crashing. I have a PS4, but I have never even considered looking at porn on it. Reading some other threads about sissy porn I feel like I'm not as far down the rabbit hole. I want off this hell ride now. I can live without Reddit for a month or two. What do you think? Could this be a possible extreme solution?
 
repassword the tablet and email the password to futureme for a time in the future.
set parental settings on ps4 removing internet browser.

Enjoy your serenity :)
 
I will do that to my PS4 immediately. Obviously I'm pretty desperate talking about destroying my tablet. I am still considering it. Thank you for the reply.
 
I guess I'll wait until tomorrow to really decide. It's almost 2 am where I am. I made an account after a bad relapse. I've been lurking this forum for months. I just need to relax a bit. Seriously, thank you for even posting here. I have felt very alone in this addiction. It feels good to actually type out some of these feelings. I've never done it before.
 
Hi @Eli Jonsen and welcome! :)

By all means get rid of the tablet if you think it would make it easier for you to avoid relapsing - it won't be the be-all and end-all solution, but every little helps I guess. Just remember: it's not the tablet that's the cause of your problem, you are. It could be you're just trying to shift blame here.
 
@Rob_B_ is right. Getting rid of the tablet might be a good short-term solution, but it's only a short-term solution. I'm surrounded by technology, so an "avoid technology" solution isn't going to work for me. I've made a number of changes to make it a little bit harder for me to engage in PMO, but none of them is the "one big thing" that's gonna do it. The change that has to be made is in me. The other changes are to support that.

I'm not saying don't get rid of the tablet; for now, it might be the right thing to do. But don't depend only on that. Get some more info, think about your triggers and make plans for them, think about the reason you really want to stop. What decisions and changes can you make that supports those?
 
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