Hello, I'm new. This may trigger some people.

I decided to make an account after reading many threads here that I relate to. I'm addicted to sissy porn. I'm not sure when it started, but I can hardly get aroused by anything else. When I'm out in the world I have eyes only for women. I also only like sissy captions that have biological women in them. I think it is mostly a self degradation thing for me.

Today I've come up with sort of an extreme decision. The only thing I use to access porn is the tablet I'm typing on right now. It's a pretty crappy tablet tbh. I got it for 99¢ when I bought a phone. I'm considering destroying it to help me stick to nofap. I've tried hiding it away, but it's too easy for me to want to pick it up for YouTube or Reddit. I think I need to destroy this device that has been a gateway to so much bullshit. I make decent enough money that I could buy a better one once I feel like I'm in control again. I have no computer to fall back to. My phone is complete garbage and can't even access the internet without crashing. I have a PS4, but I have never even considered looking at porn on it. Reading some other threads about sissy porn I feel like I'm not as far down the rabbit hole. I want off this hell ride now. I can live without Reddit for a month or two. What do you think? Could this be a possible extreme solution?

 

I will do that to my PS4 immediately. Obviously I'm pretty desperate talking about destroying my tablet. I am still considering it. Thank you for the reply.

 

I guess I'll wait until tomorrow to really decide. It's almost 2 am where I am. I made an account after a bad relapse. I've been lurking this forum for months. I just need to relax a bit. Seriously, thank you for even posting here. I have felt very alone in this addiction. It feels good to actually type out some of these feelings. I've never done it before.