Hi guys, I'm back after a few crappy months...

So, first of all, a little backstory:

Last year I found nofap on reddit. I figured I may as well give it a go, I think my first try was like 6 or 7, maybe 8, days. To be honest I thought I tried it as a test of "perseverance" or something but I didn't think I was addicted to M (porn hasn't ever really been an issue, to be honest I've only watched it like three times this year and even then I turned it off pretty quick because it is just so faked). Anyway after that week I was going to walk away but, I can't remember exactly what they said, but someone basically made the point that you could very easily rationalise masturbation and porn etc because it's very normal but if you walk away how will you know if you are addicted.

Well, throughout the year I had some pretty decent streaks: my highest was like 52 or 54. But in November, after my longest streak, I masturbated. I figured, oh well, good run I'll start again. I didn't. I stopped for a few days here and there but kept figuring, what's the point and then came the rationalisation. Anyway my point is that I don't want a few streaks here and there I want this to be for good and so I haven't been counting how long I have went without PMO because it doesn't matter, it's not about the number of days for me anymore. I think it's been a week, anywhere between 5-9 days, like I said I don't care and won't be counting anymore. I'm here because I don't want to rationalise it anymore and have the same addiction that everyone says is healthy. So yeah, hi. Hopefully this time is for real and I'm grateful that you guys (and this website/the subreddit exist) because without it I'd probably still be fighting with myself about whether or not I should stop.