So, recently I realized loneliness is my fear number one. Although I'm not absolutely lonely since I live with my dad and his friend as well as made some friends with common interests (which I had troubles in the beginning of my life in Finland). Back in my homeland, Estonia. I used to hold 100+ days, have a job and a girlfriend who eventually dumped me later. Later I quit my job which was at McDonald's mainly because I was in a situation when I lived with my mum and she allowed me to stay as long as I can study. Right after quitting the job I started smoking weed very often and in case some of you don't know - weed increases libido and at some point I lost my 100+ streak watching porn while being high. I lived like that for two years and in these two years I quit school where I studied programming and now I came back to NoFap, but this time on an English-speaking forum in hope to come back on the right track. During these two years I started fearing loneliness and dying in it. In ten years I want to establish a family, maybe with children yet I fear that I might not do it by my thirties. Another reason why I came back here is because my roommate is an unaware porn-addict who shames me for watching cartoons and saying "GROW THE FUCK UP AND WATCH PORN". But I told him my thought regarding this: "Only the one who stops watching porn truly grows up"
