Hello guys, I'm currently in my last year of school. I have been self developing for some time now. Some things I've done: went on 3 fairly long streaks of noPMO (40 days,70 days and 70 days again), read 8 books over summer, studied very hard in school to make sure that I achieved 90%+ results in my tests and exams at school. However recently I came to a conclusion that I only did all these things for a girl. Sounds stupid when you think about it. In my head she was perfect so I wanted to show her that I was a good match for her. After things ended up not working out with her I went back to PMO and started studying a lot less than before. This is shown by my exam results. I did an exam a week ago, in that exam I got 79%, last year I got 93% in that same subject. I know that I am still young, but I want to find a purpose in life. I want to find a long term goal and become successful. But I can't find something that will make me study hard again. Thank you for reading.