When we had started dating, everything seemed to be perfect and maybe that should have been the first sign something was not right. For months, I had no idea that I was just a pawn in his sexual obsession. Until one day I caved and listened to my gut feeling. I found multiple girls pictures in his phone, from any social media page. It ranged from girls that he went to college with, girls he had relationships with, random girls, porn stars and probably the most hurtful of all, a co worker. Out of all the pictures, only one of his actual girlfriend. He had a porn obsession which caused him to watch porn before and after we had sex. He would watch it any chance he could; as soon as he woke up, any time he went to the bathroom, and even at work. It's hard to even wrap my mind around any of it, let alone how do you even move forward after such events? How can you actually forgive your partner again after they have betrayed you in the most intimate way? Like for instance, one day after my bday he decided to download and save the video of his ex fuck buddy deepthroating.. Every time I ever found out about it, it was because he got caught. He has never decided to just be forth coming about any of it. (We've been dating for a little over a year). I always had to prove to him I knew he was lying to me before he would ever be honest with me.. This is the type of stuff that hurts the soul..and most guys never understand.