How is it i keep going on binges and my brain finds excuses to PMO?

I was off porn for 2 days, 2 weeks at my most. i noticed i feel better. i get headaches with withdrawals.... But the last two days i have been binging hardcore. I know i feel tempted when i get on my phone in the bathroom... probably just stop taking my phone in there? also, my brain just gets where the images flash through my mind. its kind of a difficult thing for me to defeat. because on one hand i believe that it is a problem, on the other, I don't have any relationship prospects.... I have a difficult time asking girls out. I won't even talk about finding women attractive to other guys, because i am the awkward virgin. thats probably because of porn in a way, isn't it? I think porn has an emasculating effect on me, its strange. I feel so anxious afterwards when talking to women... even women i feel comfortable talking to.

 

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