HOW PMO has changed my life and how it affects me now.

I am 23 now but 5 years ago I don't really PMO, or watch porn that much but rarely. When I hit at age 21, I was on a quest for self improvement. I decided to move out to my parents house and live by myself. I would say that is the best decision that I made in my life as I learned to survive by myself without relying to anyone and also I became more mature.. During this time, I also went out a lot to meet random people on the street just to be confident. I was very shy and introvert. Also I practice on how to meet woman. Probably one of the most exhilarating I had done. I went out approaching and meeting women during daytime and night time. I got lot of phone numbers, dates and almost got laid with several of them. Since my morals during childhood had stopped me to move further with the girls that I went out with (I'm Asian and grew up to a very religous and conservative country). One day I met a very attractive brunette, as which I thought was going well, and planning to make her my girlfriend after a few dates. I became desperate and needy and I fucked it up... I was so upset and, it made me depressed for 4 months as I couldn't stop thinking with this girl. During my 4 month depression, that's where I began watching pornography and masturbate a lot. I still went out a lot but I became less confident, became shy, my manliness seems to have vanished. I procrastinate a lot, I lost the sight of my goal and then I began to prefer to PMO instead to meet girls. Now this bad habit has stick to me like a glue. I'm having a hard time to meet with woman. My social anxiety gone so high. I procrastinate a lot. I wasn't as confident as I was, I lost my value. Then I tried the NoFap. I would say it really, but the longest streak I had is 18 days or 2 weeks. During my NoFap, I realize that I'm more driven, confident, flirty, bubbly, and like to be surrounded by people. And when I PMO'd, MO. All those positive things vanished. I became my negative self again. NOFAP really works its also hard. I'll do the best I could not to PMO again because I felt the benefits of it.