I began to notice some years ago but just recently admited to myself that I haven't fully felt my body and its perceptions with the depth I had when I was younger (I'm 23). I am talking about feeling my skin, being able to see and hear, but with no emotion raising after (what music felt like, what seeing a beautiful sky, all those things have diminished, sometimes completely!). I presume high speed internet and porn since young age has to do with this (complete lack of focus). The latter is not a problem anymore. However, my attention isn't at its sharpest. I recently started meditation (the practice I have found to be of more use is to focus on not being taken driven by my train of tought, which is a REALLY harmful habit in my life), and to do it regularly has proben to give me some short moments of improvement in my overall happiness and well beign. However, I still feel (let's say) %90 disconnected from my body and objective reality. Things feel DULL, I feel NUMB. And I DON'T LIKE IT. I post to see if someone can share some insight with me. I have to comment that I live with (but commited to treat) anxiety in the form of speedy, erratic, constant and destructive toughts. Swimming has proven to be an excellent activity for this, I will probable resume with it or any other hard sport or yoga once I'm cured (OH ALSO I AM SICK WITH COVID SINCE LAST MONDAY SO THERE'S THAT). How can I regain my sensitivity?